Project 365

WOW!

What a year it has been. Ive gone through a lot this year and I continue to go through more things.. but next year is going to be different.

On January 1 2010, I am going to start a project 365 on Youtube, If you don't know what project 365 is, it's when you do a different project everyday and post it. It's interactive and really really fun to get into.

This year I have been watching people as The Shaytard family and Also Charles Trippy but someone who really inspired me to give this game a chance was Alex. For the year of 2009 Alex has done a different project everyday and they have been funny, and cute, and totally awesome! He got me motivated. So MOTIVATED!

So im ready to start this journey. I want to complete something, something thats fun!

Here i go.

I'm so nervous and excited!!!!! I've already have some great subscribers thanks to Alex, and I found someone else who I talk to who is also doing a vlog project 365! This is taking off, and I honestly couldn't be happier!

Think about it doing 365 projects everyday.. it's CRAZY!

So this is when you come into play!!!

I NEED YOUR HELP!

Please email me project ideas and your birthday so i can SHOUT YOU OUT!!!

But most importantly I want you to have FUN!!!!!!

I want you to feel as good as I do right now, (and i haven't even started it yet)

So let's DO DIS!!!!!! :)

my email: tegan.steinberg@yahoo.com

and my project channel on Youtube.

www.youtube.com/user/teegsproject365

oh and ps. Alex himself subscribed to me channel.. HOW DOPE! :)

leader and follower..

I wish i had the words to say how I'm feeling, but it's hard.

I have so much stress and so much pressure that sometimes i feel that it weights me down. I have 2 jobs where people count on me to work hard and be on time and have a good attitude. But sometimes i just don't want to. I hate that i put on a fake face and pretend that everything is fine. Most times then none i smile because i have to. I'm a very good actress.. just sayin.

The little things in my life seem obsolete in terms of the big picture.

Horrible friends.. the people that read this know exactly who I'm talking about.. lets put it as if I talk to you, your good.

Guys (yes, that needs a line to it's self)

So much stress and pressure..

But somehow i have to believe that it will all work out.

I don't know what or who gives me this feeling but it's strong.

I apologize if this blog seems depressing or scrambled but its meant as a ... actually i don't apologize, this is me being real whether it's good or bad. I'm only human, as much as i want everything to be easy and blissful it's not going to be. And that's where i getting with, with the big picture.

Just because you thought the painting looked good, doesn't mean you can't look at it a different way.

Metaphor.. get used to it! :)

ANOTHER ISSUE:

I'm a very independent person and I don't need a man or anyone else to complete me. That's when the bad friends come in, a certain person who shall remain nameless who calls themselves my friend tried to hook me and her brother up long distance, again.. ok real story, it's long so here's the shorten..

I was dating this guy kinda sortof before he left for the air force and then we decided that we would see how we feel talking long distance. Then stuff was said, "Gauntlet's were thrown" and we decided that we would just "BE FRIENDS." which i was fine with. We talked again and then i gave him a second chance to be back together sort of, and now it's all fucked up (for a lack of a better term) he's coming back this month and to be honest i don't feel the same way about him that I've felt before. He thinks that everything is cool. I don't want to tell him all this over a ichat or skype! So yeah all of this adds to the stress and pressure.

Im to young to have to deal with all this shit for real! haha

but I felt like writing something else that was a little bit less depressing.

Anyways.. I have to get ready for work.. JOY!

Have a safe and happy week!

xoxo

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it's a website you can take pictures and post then ever so often. It's really fun! I like to take picture and here's a place that i can post them

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Another reason why i love to interact with you guys! :)

One Love

xox

Does Everybody Know?

I love going thru my itunes and finding songs to fall back in love with.

John Legend is literally the top artist on most playlists..

I love this man..

His lyrics and voice speak to me so much, He is such a powerful songwriter and singer.

His song Everybody Knows is like my past relationship.

I try so hard to hold on to him, and make things go back to the way they used to be. But I know deep in my heart they won't. He was my first love. I know that but it was way more that, He was my best friend, and losing him was losing my best friend.

So I wish you the best.. I guess

It gets harder every day, but I can’t seem to shake the pain
I’m trying to find the words to say, please stay
It’s written all over my face, I can’t
Function the same when you’re not here
I’m calling your name but no one’s there
And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.

‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

I don’t care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don’t fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don’t know
The radio’s on, you're tuning me out,
I’m trying to speak, you’re turning me down

And I hope one day you’ll see nobody has it easy,
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess.
‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
‘Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

Oh I wish you’d understand
Oh, just an ordinary man
Wish that we had known
Everybody knows, but nobody really knows
And I know one day you’ll see, nobody has it easy
I still can’t believe you found somebody new
I wish you the best, I guess.

‘Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
‘Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows

Lost For Words

Sometimes sitting alone, i wonder.

I honestly can't tell you everything i wonder about, its so random that I don't even remember. But as I type this i say it in my head.. like an internal dialogue.

Sometimes it comes out wrong or sometimes it comes out right.

Usually the things I say on here are things I don't say out loud. Probably because no one will listen, or I have a lot on my mind and somehow all of that comes out on this page.

I have so much I deal with from day to day. It's hard to hold it in. So here we go, this blog is my diary I guess. It's small and really public but I don't know, I think from my stress and sometimes anger I come up with some really inspiring stuff.

I know i'm kind of tooting my own horn but, the things i write really move me.

I want to make this blog about you, as well as myself... With your help.

Feel free to comment me or write an email, i want to know what you think.

My mind is a thirlwind and im just rambling. But i wanted to post something.

Let's start the week off good and safe!

xoxo

You Wish..

You wake up one day, and everything changes

You cross a line and there's not turning back.

You're caught between the love and the danger,

It's hard to leave a heart, so open up to that.

You wish, everytime a star comes from the sky.

You wish, that he feels the way you feel inside.

You hope and you pray keep it all locked away.

As you see yourself lovin him here.

You Wish.

You think you know just how to read him,

Then he throws you right off track.

And all you know is how much you need him.

Time will tell you where his heart is really at.

You wish, everytime a star comes from the sky.

You wish, that he feels the way you feel inside.

You hope and you pray keep it all locked away.

As you see yourself lovin him here.

You wish

Late at night,

You wonder what he's thinking of.

It's killing you and all that's true.

As you fall deeper in love.

You Wish...

I Wish.

Im sitting here in a chair, thinking of us! I love the way you keep it only between us. I love that you thinking about me just as much as i think about you...

Island of HOPE.

I feel everyday that im surrounded by posers and impostures...

It goes in one ear and out the other.

In life, you need to take your own advice. Take a dose of your own medicine.

I'm listening to 'where'd you go?'

Where did YOU go?

Everyday I see the real you slip away.

Island of Hope and a sea of sea mist.

Advice/ Knowledge

I'm a friend.

I'm a Woman.

I'm a human being.

And i should be treated as such.

Today has been one of those days..

I'm really over trying to help my friends out with there life.

Most of my friends have problems and I'm the type to help. I always try and be there for them when they need me literally 24/7. (My phone is on during the night right next to me.)

I am what you call a good friend. I've been the friend that has always tried to look on the bright side of things so they don't feel bad. I'm the one who will spend time listening to their problems, and come up with some sort of resolution, anything to help you out.

So when you call me crying over a guy I listen and say I'm sorry as many times as I can. I tell you to stay away from him, because I'm your friend and I want what's best for you.

So when you call and text me when I'm trying to have personal time with my guy, I still listen to you. When a man treats you so badly that you cry your eyes out for days, he's not worth it. I tell you time after time he's not worth your time.

When you don't listen to me, I'm not going to listen anymore when you cry. I can't help you when you don't help yourself.

I'm only one person who carries your burdens.

So tell me why your with him now? So he can use you once again.. I'm not always going to be there for you. i have my own life.

I work 2 jobs.

I have a family.

I have school.

I have other friends besides you I want to spend time with.

and I try to juggle a guy too.

But here today it's stopping.

You've had your time.

It's my time now.

I'm focusing on me.

I love myself way to much to do what you do.

You could never walk in my shoes...

Please take it from me, you can only help people who want to help themselves. Don't let their unhappiness get to you.

Stay strong.

Stay together.

Stay YOU.

xoxo

9-3-09

Today was a good day..

i got to sleep in and not go to school.. that's right i'm out of school! YES!

it's been a really long year for school.

Fall term looks nice and not to hard. I really happy about that.. like obvi.

So that's a really good thing! :)

NEXT...

I'm working 2 jobs these days and it great for my bank.. hella money and spending it on bills. YAHOO. As most as all of us are.

I'm a waitress and a Nanny.. wow how different are those jobs.. haha

but anyways.

I've become and twitter fiend.. who isn't these days.

(follow me @teegs08)

but that keeps me from going completly insane.

Also someone who helps is my really good friend LO.. she goes to the univ in my state, which is a couple of hours away from where I am.

she just left for the summer to go back to school and we have been talking a lot. I really miss her and we tell each other everything. It helps, and it sucks that she lives so far away.

I love you LO!

I had a lot more to say but i can't remember what i had to say.

I'm going to go get some LATE night BK and some ice cream.. dulce de leche! YUMMM!!!!

tweet me, and ill tweet you back! :)

Until next time!

xoxo

P.S As if I didn't say enough in the blog about my twitter.. follow my day to day! @teegs08

a day in the

It's been quite a long time since, ive written something useful.

My life has been the same everyday EVER.

I go to school, and work ( since i have two jobs i work all the time) and somehow juggle hanging out with my girl friends.. go to the gym and have a good guy in my life.

Its harder than that.

I spend more of my time with my friends then my guys, Well some of my friends. Some of my good friends have been MIA from my life. They all to have to juggle the same things I do, the only difference is, is that im the one reaches out and try's to make time for those who i have grown apart from. It takes a friend to be a friend. That is prolly my favorite line, it's more then being a friend, its being the friend that you can be, and want to be.

It's been a long summer and I'm looking forward to having a schedule, that I can work with.

In the fall i'll have a full schedule at school and i'll be working toward my degree. It's a long road until I can become a teacher. But i look forward to it. I don't look forward to the math classes, or the papers but everything else.

This fall I might also be helping my God Mother in her classroom. She teaches 2nd grade, and I would love to volunteer again. I did it last year. WOW, what an experience that was! It was awesome, and i wouldn't change that experience for anything. I grew soooo attached to them as they did me. I have a lot of fond memories that I won't ever forget. :)

Moving on. The boy situation is to complicated to the nth degree. To much would make your head explode. (believe me, it makes my head spin.)

In the end my life has changed a lot in the past year, and I can't wait to see where this all takes me. :) until next time.

P.S Vacation is right around the corner, I'm going to the beach for 5 days. I'm really excited. I'm going with one of my friends, and i couldn't be happier. This is long over due, and i'm extremely excited! :)

Follow me from day to day on Twitter @teegs08

one love brother! :)

It's been a while since i have last updated my blog..

To long in fact.

To much to tell for sure.

All that needs to be said is, friends have been lost friends have been made. I'm gunna do me, and the ones that are there.. are the ones who im sticking with.

Im listening to NKOTB.. (New kids on the Block, in case you don't live on this planet) LOL!

I went to there concert on july 7th in Seattle.(Auburn) Opening acts Jabbawockees, and Jesse McCartney.

I went to see Jesse McCartney, but to my surprise I loved New kids. It wasn't there Good looks(well that helped) or the lights and dance moves, It wasn't the thousands of middles aged woman screaming. It was there ability to capture an audience.

It helped that the crowd was packed of all there fans but honestly they put on a great show. From the open to close it was a great show. I had AMAZING seats.. i was in the second box from the stage. dead center. EPIC. I was able to see the sweat from there faces. It was fantastic.

Once they did several songs on stage, they turned the crowd around and had huge platforms behind the VIP boxes and sang 2 songs behind us.. It was insane.

I was never a huge fan of the New Kids, but to my surprise I knew more songs then I thought. Of course if your a human on this earth, you know the song "You Got It(The Right Stuff)", and if you don't where have you been. But i was singing a lot of the new stuff that Ive heard.

Overall it was a great show and I was extremely happy.

Once i figure out how to post pictures i will post some great pics!

xoxo

long time no talk.. ive been working on a lot of things that are really branching out!

im going on vacation on sunday and I honestly can't wait!!!

im going to california... taking the train with my best friend in the whole world.

lot of pictures coming and i will be sure to write as we go!!!

xoxo

Family.. the people you thought would always be there for you.

Not matter what

Always screws you in the end

I have a fucked family

Today as i was busing the tables at my part time job, at this hotel

thinking to myself how many crappy friends and great friends i have.

Friends have always come and gone,

but something this times makes it different..

ive been thru a lot this couple of weeks, i guess big for me. ive done a a lot of emotionally growing as well.

Im a very sensitive person so little things get to me i guess.

Ive lost alot of great friends..

for various reason.. i have a strong personality and i guess that's the problem maybe.

But ive reconnected with several people over the past  week that ive been friends with. and i miss them.

A LOT!

So ive decided to drop all the friends that dont mean anything to me the ones i dont care about!

(Preggers Mc Preg Preg aka bitch with a baby, Fatty bitch who only cares about herself, Stinky gay guy who nobody likes, and last but not least, bitch who always takes pictures of yourself and your not even cute!)

How that was alot to get off my chest.

Thomas, Ashley, Natalia, Hannah

These are the people who will become my inner circle.

You are now the the clique! lol

just kidding..

but really i have new friends and this is a new year, and im going to live it up.

Think, Feel, See

There's always a song that speaks to you, like you never thought it could.. i have several of those songs..

It's takes you back to the first time you heard it..

It may bring you to tears maybe. It might even make you happy.

As many people we have drama and situations in our life.

It's the moment after that really matters.

THINK..

FEEL..

SEE..

what you want, and with that one song we can.

Suddenly we have a own world..

of

music.

How much time do we have?... enough

Today i was moved by the words of others...

It's a new year and i feel like a new girl.. or women.

But i feel scared... scared of things to come...

One thing that ive always feared is the unknown.

The only obvious explaination would be of that I am young.

Yes i'm young.

My book is still being written i guess..

Were probably still in the first chapter but i am making progress..

grow from what you are scared from.

The reason i bring this up..

Mr. D

I know what your thinking?

Who or what is Mr. D?

Well we could just call him a friend.

Someone that isn't afraid of the unknown but embraces it.

Mr. D is a teacher and as far as i know he's one that i could learn from.

He was diagnoised with Lung Cancer in 2004.

He didn't tell most people... not his students, not his colleges.. only close friends and i assume family knew.

He got sick one day and was unable to attend  school.

He was in the Hospital for 4 months before he passed.

Even tho he was physically gone, doesn't mean he was gone from our hearts.

Mr. D instilled something in me that was missing.

COURAGE.

To go after what you want, and have nothing stand in the way.

To be who you want to be.

To not let being scared get in the way of anything.

To live your life as if you were gone the next day.

Be thankful for what you have, for who you have.. everyday.........

No matter what....

"How much time do we have?"... "Enough"