Today as i was busing the tables at my part time job, at this hotel

thinking to myself how many crappy friends and great friends i have.

Friends have always come and gone,

but something this times makes it different..

ive been thru a lot this couple of weeks, i guess big for me. ive done a a lot of emotionally growing as well.

Im a very sensitive person so little things get to me i guess.

Ive lost alot of great friends..

for various reason.. i have a strong personality and i guess that's the problem maybe.

But ive reconnected with several people over the past  week that ive been friends with. and i miss them.

A LOT!

So ive decided to drop all the friends that dont mean anything to me the ones i dont care about!

(Preggers Mc Preg Preg aka bitch with a baby, Fatty bitch who only cares about herself, Stinky gay guy who nobody likes, and last but not least, bitch who always takes pictures of yourself and your not even cute!)

How that was alot to get off my chest.

Thomas, Ashley, Natalia, Hannah

These are the people who will become my inner circle.

You are now the the clique! lol

just kidding..

but really i have new friends and this is a new year, and im going to live it up.

Think, Feel, See

There's always a song that speaks to you, like you never thought it could.. i have several of those songs..

It's takes you back to the first time you heard it..

It may bring you to tears maybe. It might even make you happy.

As many people we have drama and situations in our life.

It's the moment after that really matters.

THINK..

FEEL..

SEE..

what you want, and with that one song we can.

Suddenly we have a own world..

of

music.

How much time do we have?... enough

Today i was moved by the words of others...

It's a new year and i feel like a new girl.. or women.

But i feel scared... scared of things to come...

One thing that ive always feared is the unknown.

The only obvious explaination would be of that I am young.

Yes i'm young.

My book is still being written i guess..

Were probably still in the first chapter but i am making progress..

grow from what you are scared from.

The reason i bring this up..

Mr. D

I know what your thinking?

Who or what is Mr. D?

Well we could just call him a friend.

Someone that isn't afraid of the unknown but embraces it.

Mr. D is a teacher and as far as i know he's one that i could learn from.

He was diagnoised with Lung Cancer in 2004.

He didn't tell most people... not his students, not his colleges.. only close friends and i assume family knew.

He got sick one day and was unable to attend  school.

He was in the Hospital for 4 months before he passed.

Even tho he was physically gone, doesn't mean he was gone from our hearts.

Mr. D instilled something in me that was missing.

COURAGE.

To go after what you want, and have nothing stand in the way.

To be who you want to be.

To not let being scared get in the way of anything.

To live your life as if you were gone the next day.

Be thankful for what you have, for who you have.. everyday.........

No matter what....

"How much time do we have?"... "Enough"