Mood: I don't know my mood right now, i guess just confused and a bit frustrated.
Listening to: "I've Got You" McFly and others songs. hah
Drinking: Diet Pepsi on the rocks.
I don't think that I've posted anything since the beginning of the year. Well happy 2010 and what a year it's been. (so far)
If you don't know I have been doing Project 365 for 71 days!
and I really couldn't be more busy. I love doing it and I love the interaction I'm getting.
It's great and I'm having a ton of fun doing it.
I'm expressing myself in way's Ive never done before and I really like it. I'm very much a creative person but sometimes I don't know how to express that and have a outlet for it.
Here and there I would perfect a song, and record myself, but never had the confidence to post it.
But I realize that if I'm not at that point yet, I will be there someday. I'm already a step closer then before. With posting videos of myself just being myself and getting feedback that I'm funny and inspiring just kills me.
I've always dreamed of being a influence, and be inspiring and now I have. Getting emails and comments about how I can make a person laugh and when they tell me that I have made there day, there is something so special about it.
I love to entertain and I LOVE just being myself, and when people are excepting for me to just show them the real me.
ahhh I really can't even explain it in words!
Today actually I got an email on YouTube, and this girl told me how much she loves my videos and that she wishes she could be my friends, and she's jealous of the people who really know me. Then she says, and I'm coping this word for word.
"Your friends and family probably don't know how lucky they are to have someone like you in there life, You have such a spirit and Its out there for everyone to see. I hope the people in your life REALLY appreciate you for who you are."
This honestly brought tears to my eyes. This person who barely knows me, could look at me and just know. Needless to say I was floored and it got me thinking. I'm so blessed!!
To my good friends who have supported me and this journey so far. No need to name who you are, the ones who comment all my videos and text me just to say hello.
Also to the new people who have come into my life, and has shoved some of the other "bad" people out! :)
I'm going through a transition in my life, and I make my own choices, and I can say that P365 has done that for me. Even tho I'm not even half way through it, I still feel like a different person.
I'm me, not afraid to be just ME.
Mood: Relieved.. Writing always makes me feel better.
