Sometimes i have nothing to do.. i sit at home watching movies or shows that are better than my life.
Something that makes my life seems so much better than it really it.
But the truth.. i have no life.
I make this life of bliss..
Im like LC with no hills. My heidi left me for a spencer. I have no LO or Audrina and no Whitney.
I dont know what it is.. I sit on facebook and myspace for something anything to happen..
no comments
no wall posts
no nothing
Sometimes i break down and cry.. while my "friends" do what they want to do.. what am i to do?
Do they know that i haven't been the same?
Can they tell that im different?
Nope!
I haven't written in while for a reason.. the reason of i knew once i touched these keys i would bleed my feelings. Bleed them to someone that isn't listening.
So instead of be my outgoing, bubbly, funny person i am.
Im not..
I can't stand being that person that is always there for there friends.. buy them things and wishing that they will be the same..
everything that i have done was to better them and not myself.
but none of this matters.
i live in a world of fakes.. why not just join them.
